I seriously debated about whether to post anything today at all. I had a Waiting on Wednesday post scheduled but I wasn’t sure whether or not to go ahead with it or not. I have been pretty lax over the last couple of weeks with both posting and keeping on top of comments.
I love when people leave comments on my posts – the interaction is the best part of blogging for me. But I haven’t felt like myself over the last couple of weeks and I have struggled trying to respond to all the lovely folks who have been so kind to check out my posts and leave a comment.
You see, it has been a struggle because this time last year I lost my mum. I posted about it at the time but I still haven’t really gotten to grips with the loss – I am not sure I ever will. In many ways my mum was my best friend and although I am very lucky to have a wonderful fiancé, some really great friends, and supportive family members, it still doesn’t fill the hole that has been left in my life.
My mum passed away on May 6th 2014. It is a day etched into my memory. She was diagnosed with cancer about 6 months before so although I was prepared to lose her, it still came as a massive shock when it happened. I miss her. I always will.
The last year has been tough but I have tried to get through it as best I can. I know my mum would have wanted me to be strong. She was always there for me and encouraged me to go for what I wanted. My love of reading, I got from my mum. Same with my love of music. I am a lot like her in many ways and although at one point the thought would have given me pause, it now makes me smile.
Miss you mum.